Accepting My Disability

I've been disabled now for a year

Its been hard but I'm still here

This journey is not one a lot of you could have made

I'm stating facts not throwing shade

It took me a while to see that my entire life had changed

Pushed some people away I had to learn how to deal with this pain and the fact my entire life had changed

I had become bitter reckless and didn't love me

The mask has come off I can finally see

The direction GOD has for me

I went in on a stretcher came out on a walker then a wheelchair

I lost my independence just didn't seem fair nor if anyone cared

Some doors were closed that won't be reopened

Going through this had me lonely depressed suicidal and broken

On 7/20 the new chapter of my life will begin

This weak heart of mines they will start to mend

Whatever happens, now know that I have peace within

God has been caring me through this storm

But this is not an ordinary storm I needed it for my life to transform

For him to pull out of me what I didn't see in myself

I was broke broken broke down I had nothing left

I fell laid on the floor for a day lost body fluids felt some kind of way

Couldn't move to call anyone so I started to pray

God's got me at the end of the day

The best part about a fall is when you're able to get back up

I don't want your pity or you to feel sorry for me because you think I'm down on my luck

I want your encouragement for you to see I didn't give up I can't do such

Sometimes you have to lose to win

Release some folks family and friend

With every test will be an amazing testimony

Some trial and struggles reveal the fake & phony

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved

 ~Ms.K.Simpson~ @MSKAYES

Interest

She's into you 

Showing you interest too

But chase you she refuses to do

Any kind of relationship takes two

So when you don't put in the time work and effort to pursue

Losing her & her interest you're about to do

The phone works both ways

Yet if she doesn't hit you up or reach out you won't call for days

Its 24hrs in a day it takes less than 30 seconds for a Hello or Hey

People make time for things and people they want to do

If you're what he wants in his life he will take the time to purse

Stop giving more than your getting back in return 

Don't set yourself up to get a broken hurt or get burned

The signs are there beware RUN

Looks like with you all he wants to do is have some FUN
 2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~ @MSKAYES

Let Me Be Your Peace

Let Me Be Your Peace You're doing a million and 1 things 

Building your empire following your dream Grinding daily by any means 

I'm attracted to your intellect 

The conversations so mind-blowing it gets me wet You're always on point in making me smile

 I'm digging you I like your style

 When you're with me all negativity I will help you release

 I'm just trying to be your peace 

The calm to your storm

 I'm not average so don't expect the norm 

Keeping you happy and extremely satisfied 

Here is my application I just applied.....

 I play for keeps not that chick on the side

 See I'm a Queen I'm not one you can hide 2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~ @MSKAYES

I Wonder Why

I wonder why

People say good things about you when you die 

Heart felt makes some cry 

But can't check on you when your alive

Yet will show out at your demise

 Acting a fool and telling lies

 I wonder why

 It shouldn't take a quote pic or post for someone to check on you

 Especially when they know what your going through

 I wonder Why 

Yet they watching you liking your quotes and pics

 But can't call send a text stop by hmmm some of y'all need to quit.

 If something happen to you they would feel real bad 

But you never made time now that's sad

 I wonder why

 People quick to bring up your past

  See the changes your making or made that's a conversation that wont last

 I wonder why

 Everyone is busy and have things going

  When are you coming to show your love ones that going through some love when GOD calls them home 

                                                                       I wonder why

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

DON'T COME FOR ME

Don't come for me that just wouldn't be good 

We all have a past but you want to sit up 

And talk about mines as if you don't have one

Don't get it misunderstood 

The difference between me and you

Is I'm not ashamed of anything I've done 

you must be because about my past your 

Mouth you want to run

This is your only warning hon 

I come with a warning label so

Please proceed with caution 

You on some little BOY/GIRL shit 

I'm trying to build empire I'M BOSSIN

Let me tell my own story I don't need a narrator

But that pillow talking you doing

About me is the move of a hater 

Classy Sassy Sexy with a little bit of HOOD 

Please don't come for me that just wouldn't be GOOD

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

Keep Calm

Keep Calm I'm going through a storm 

So when you see me don't be alarmed

You may see me on my walker

Stop and say hello I'm still a talker

You may see me with my cane

Oh how I hide the pain

But when you see me in my wheelchair 

Please don't stare I have a disability yes I'm aware

I will not argue stress nor do the drama

Being in this chair has taught me to be humble

Its hard I'm not going to lie

Every single day I cry

The Hospital is my second home

Funny cause when I go I'm all alone

That's where I get the strength to hold on and be strong

I have my weak moments when I want to throw in the towel

Close your mouth I know so many are saying not you WOW

Depression is real 

I'm no longer holding back or sparing anyone's feelings 
I'm going to tell you actually how I feel

I'm not forcing relationships with family or friends

I have real health issues I don't care who this offends

This is the only body I have to live in

It's not selfish I'm just putting myself first and learning to take care of me 
as well as my body

I've done so much for so many in the past

Amazed at how some are not there for me right now when I would give them my last

I forgive you but I'm paying close attention

There is no animosity or any tension

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

She Got Pain

She got Pain all in her chest 

Lord, please let her rest

Her bad days are starting to out way the good

Sleep she wishes she could 

Pain so intense it has her up all times of the night

Depression setting in she's fighting with all my might

Most of you see the good days but never the bad

Many ignored, wrote off, didn't check on her she's not even mad

It gave her more strength than she thought she had

Some days she has no strength to get out the bed or cook

Stay tuned this is going to be a helluva book

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

Its Funny

It’s funny you can’t see me check on me while I’m alive 

But will be front and center at my demise

I'm not throwing shade nor sending a subliminal message

I guess I will chop this up as another life lesson

I'm going to count it all Joy I need all my blessing

I can't make anyone spend time see me or come through 

But for the ones that do I'm grateful for you

I feel like a black sheep at times

Support hmm where are the friends & family of mines

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

Dont Come For Me

Come for me if you dare

Didn't you read the warning sign dog beware

Go ahead release this beast

I"m a Thoroughbred hungry and ready to be released

Walk away and let it go

This is the first and last time I won't tell you no moe

You don't want no problems with me

Subliminal message Inboxes all that I see

You better walk away and let it be

When I was in your presence you had nothing to say

Now you leaving Voicemails and inbox go back ignoring me like you did the other day

See I'm a grown woman and those type of games I just don't play

2016©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

No Not Yet

No Not Yet

Do you know the real me

Don’t touch my body

Are you at the place where you really care about who I am as a person

Don’t touch my body

Are you absolutely sure you’re ready for a committed relationship

Don’t touch my body

Why am I saying this

Because the real me is not the exterior 

The real me is not the physical 

The real me is a journey to my heart

And you get there through successions of one on one conversation

Walks in the park taking your time showing that you really care

Through daily romantic provocations

That’s the real me that’s what I’m about

2013©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

When you Step To Me

When You Step To Me

When you first step to me tell me about my mind

My intellect my ability to reason my personality my flow in conversation

Please find something beyond the basic superficialities from your limited vision and limited mind

Go beyond what you see on the outside

I get compliments like that all the time show me what makes you different

Can you stimulate my mind

Causes if you can’t then you’re wasting your time

2013©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

I admire the woman I'm becoming

I admire the woman I'm becoming

Even though I'm going through and overcoming Don't get it twisted some days I look in the mirror and don't like what I see all these health issues and disabilities weighing down on me I am a voice that will be heard I'm more than my pictures and my words. I'm on a mission to empower and restore Blessings and doors are starting o open I want more I give myself self 10 minutes to have that pity party t cry or whatever it is Then its time to put on my high heels. This is a movement and mission I'm on Tragedy struggles test have been the best teacher for me I've really learned. Don't count me out I'm just getting started to stay tuned my work will elevate real soon. I don't need a click God will align me with the right ones he wants me to work with The first step believe in yourself your brand and your product.~Ms.K.Simpson~ 

(My story from stretcher to walker to wheelchair) #fromstretchertowalkertowheelchair

#fromstretchertowalkertowheelchair

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

In the blink of an eye

My life changed in the blink of an eye

Days weeks months still now I cry

I went from the top to the bottom

What hurt was to see family and so call friends treat me rotten

From Stretcher to walker to 

Its days I still can't get out the bed

Don't let my pics and post have you mislead

My daughters and grandchildren are my life support

Without them I would have given up my life would've been cut short

When I couldn't dress & feed my self I started to cry

This Is an adjustment I'm not going to lie

I will not let you play the victim in my story

When I speak I speak with authority

My entire life has changed

Never again will it nor I be the same

I'm not handicap but have several disabilities

Which has humbled me down for no one do I have animosity or hostility 

I"m not reopening any doors that closed

In with the new out with the old

You counted me out now watch how this unfold

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

@MSKAYES

Are you The Right one?

When the right one comes communications will be a priority in the relationship, You gotta be ready for them! He will want more than just your body, he knows the difference between Sex and Romance! He will celebrate the Woman that YOU are! You will make necessary adjustments to make it work without changing your entire life! They will know how to apologize and they will also know how to forgive.There will be nothing that's withheld from one another. They won't be Judgmental of you but living with Grace! You will both work together for the success of each other's Dreams. You will agree to disagree! His lady will have respect for him because he has mutual respect for her. You can weather the storm together! He's a man and not a boy! You will not ever second guess if they are the right one. It will speak for itself! You will wish for them to always be around not to stay away! They will no what to say and how to say it and when to say it! You will complete one another! They will take your breath away! You would have made space for them in your entire life! They will make the Long Journey worth it! All fears of being hurt again will leave! He will make you feel safe and secure! You will want to spend a lifetime with them! You can build a future together that will last a lifetime! You will only know the right one because you had so many wrong ones! When the right one comes they would have already unpacked all their pass baggage! He will know how to talk to you! You can be as transparent as you want to be not worrying if they will judge You, He will ask for a list of your favorite things and work on it item by item! He will send flowers just because....They will be your greatest encourager, You will appreciate Him for all he does for you!I t will be about YOU and them & you won't let outside forces get in between the bond you have! You can't ask for something and not be ready to receive! Are you truly ready for the right one to come? Are you the right one....
~Ms.K.Simpson~

I HEAR YOU

What you're saying sounds good
Show me if you would
I need your actions and words to align
Otherwise, I can't and will not give you any more of my time
I have a lot of love to give
But if you cant keep it 100 there is no way we can build
I'm too old for Netflix and chill
Something in my gut tells me you're not keeping it real
After a certain time your phone is powered off
I'm sorry explain that because I'm kind of lost
You say you have nothing to Hide
So an explanation I need you to provide
I'm sure you don't want to see my other side
Games drama extra and lies I truly despise
2016©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

Require

You look at my full sexy lips 

But should be paying attention to my actions & words as I prepare to take your mind on a mental trip

Are you trying to start a business with me because you not getting me in the bed

See what I need and require at this point in my life is not between your legs

It's not evening you giving me some head

It's about a team player building a foundation an empire and getting this bread

I don't F*** for the sport I don't casually date

I refuse to allow anyone to add any more to my plate

I need a mental & spiritual  connection 

I've elevated blame it on life lessons

It's only so much sexing you can do

Once you finish the bills are still due

Why you laying up with someone that can't help you 

If we cant build 

My interest is lost already for real

 2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

You Want To Know Me

You say you want to get to know me

But what is it you want to know

I'm preparing myself for my Husband/King 

The one that's ready to settle down and give me the ring

I can't just accept anything 

To the table I know what I bring

Your desire to see me make it

Must be greater than it is to see me NAKED

Sex is not on the Menu

Do you still want to get to know me do you really want me to continue

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

This the deal

I've accepted that I'm really ill

So I'm going to step back sit down and chill

My mind keeps telling me to go 

It's telling me you got to secure this bag though

My body is saying you're not ready but then I pass out and hit the floor 

I know its time to take it easy and take it slow

That bag ain't going to matter if I'm not here no more

See I got some major health issue my heart is functioning really low

Things I use to be able to do on my own

 I require assistant I can no longer do alone

I get really tired and weak 

So Negativity BS drama chaos foolishness ect you bring my way I will ignore you and even not speak

So many people make excuses for what they cant do

You have people like me with disabilities who wish we could fully function like you

Don't take anything or anyone for granted

Your life can change like mines in a minute an hour or day damn it

I"m not defined by my wheelchair

Or even the people that show they don't care 

Nor the ones that walked away when I just knew they would be there

To hold my hand and have my back

I'm not sending subliminal messages I'm stating clear facts

I'm grateful for my small circle especially the one that checks on me see if I've eating asked if I need anything

But my favorite just sitting with me its the little things

God is definitely using me and tragedies 

Stay tuned the testimony will be amazing just wait and see

For what GOD has for me is for me

I"m Just Not Built To Break 2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

When People that I haven't seen finally see me in my wheelchair all they do is stare Then asking the Famous Question what happen how did you get there as if they care. Now we hadn't talked or seen each other in months maybe years Life happen and these are my new set of wheels. I don't owe you a play by play whats on your mind how are you doing today. This adjustment is real and has definitely changed my outlook on life Where my strength comes from to keep going is only Jesus Christ You're not in this situation so please don't tell me how to feel. I'm not handicap but disable I'll ask for help if needed I don't like to feel enabled My support system became zero to none

I then became my biggest cheerleader got out and started having fun. Your crying and complaining about what you're going through. Its someone in the worst situation than you. I'm over the fake love fake friends and people who have shown me they not riding with me nor have my back.. Just remember this is only temporary I will not claim this for it's just a minor set back That was needed to wide out the phony and fake. God doesn't make no mistakes. when you're getting ready to get elevated sometimes you have to be brought all the way to the ground. He will remove those things and people that are not suppose to go to the next level with you let them go don't clown. You learn who is for you and has your back when your down. They said a support system is what I needed I needed to keep friends and family around. Well, that's what has pulled me through when the calls stopped the checking on me, the seeing if I ate, bringing me a plate or if I needed anything, That's when I took ownership of being in a chair and disable I didn't like how things seem. I know what's it like to be homeless sleeping under a bridge, I know what its like to sleep in a storage.... Get ready for it. I"m Just Not Built To Break 2017©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved ~Ms.K.Simpson~

People Make Time

Depression Is real

The things I want I speak

I"m no longer girlfriend material 

But wife

I know my worth if we not working towards that I don't need you in my life

The things I seek I speak into existence 

A woman will tell you 3 things how to get her, keep her and lose her pay close attention 

I'm too old to do just the boyfriend thing

I'm positioning myself for my king

2018©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved

~Ms.K.Simpson~