Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Fair Weather Friend

You don't really fool with ME if you go days...not a word, text, call no nothing when were suppose to be close...See when I was down going through my storm. You became Casper the friendly ghost..Disappeared At a time I really needed you the most... Now that I'm on my way back up don't say a word,make a call or send a text... I assure you we are no longer close..
People if they can't be there when your down..then why when your up your still letting those Fair Weather Friends come around...... Fair weather friends I just can no longer do.. I'm drain and so over you...If your feeling some type of way about this..... Then it's probably about you.. I went through my phone deleted 465 contacts.... Now I'm down to 10.. If you can't reach me you no what it is then...

I have no room in my life for Fair Weather Friends..I'm not mad at you I assure you that. I'm just on a different Journey and not looking back... I don't need anything or anyone in the way of my Destiny and that statement right there is a fact...I'm glad I went through this ordeal thank you Jesus........for revealing those Fair Weather Friends and showing me the ones that was Real. .It wasn't just the for the Fair Weather Friends it was some Family too.... Oh trust me I didn't forget bout you....Some may of you are cut off too. If your words and actions don't align... You are diffidently a waste of my Time....I'm on a different level and I'm staying to myself... If its not positive you can go to he left...

Now do you really know what that mean... A friend who is only a friend when circumstances are pleasant or profitable. At the first sign of trouble, these capricious, disloyal friends will drop their relationship with you. A friend who is only around when they need you. A friend who is only nice to you when it's convenient. Someone who's wishy-washy. Someone who is a "backstabber." Someone who abandons you in certain situations. I'm sure some of you have some in your circle.. I can no longer do them.. With Growth comes Maturity... I cant have things or people in my life that don't benefit it in some kind of way ...

I've lost a lot of people in my life friends/family.....and I'm not afraid to lose another one. I absolutely do not have time nor can I entertain nonsense...I had to do some cleaning up...

Cant continue to care about fair weather friends. Especially when there is nothing but static coming back from their direction. Friendships take effort,  what do you suppose to do when all the effort comes from one side only? The second I hit less than sunny times. They evaporated. No longer hanging out. Only called once by mistake in the last 6 months or so. No replies to emails or texts. Does not take a genius to see what is going on.So. I stopped trying to hang out. I stopped calling, because I felt like I was a hassle for them to talk to. I stopped emailing, texting, calling ect.... I stopped trying. Have a great day everyone...Ms.K.Simpson

Sunday, March 24, 2013


 It's amazing how when I went to jail  what a difference it really made. Jail is not for everyone... Yet when I got locked up I could see things a lot clearer..After I saw that no one cared enough to visit me, write me or accept my call while I was gone, I changed when I got back. I didn't get mean, I got focused! Some take it as I'm being mean when really all I'm doing is staying to myself, staying focused and doing what I have to do to better me.... As I continue this journey God has me on.. I don't look at the bad things as bad anymore. I see them as lessons also a assignment that God has for me to do. In every bad thing you go through find the positive in it. God surely knows what he is doing with you. He don't make any mistakes.. 

When I got out of Jail its like my mind was on grind mode only. I only dealt with people who cared about getting money & grinding. If it wasn't about business, I had no time for it! The only thing I had to find a different kind of hustle. I wanted God to use me how ever he wanted. So I cried out not my will lord but yours.. Use me how ever you would like. When I started walking with God, certain things changed, but not everything. I still don't entertain anything that's not about something! I don't gossip or chill period! I vacation or do my hobbies, but other than that, I'm about my business! So don't don't take it as I'm acting funny. I'm just walking in the will of God.... I'm doing what I have to do to become a better me.. I'm positioning myself to allow God to use me as a vessel and to be a blessing to someone else..

I'm grateful for my new circle, my mentors, business contacts and people that saw more in me then my past..They saw something to want to give me a chance.. Atlanta is a state that its not what you know its who you know.. I just had one on my Business Contacts tell me welcome to Atlanta... All I can say the things and doors that or flying open for me. Is no one but GOD..  Don't give up on your dreams just because you get knocked down.. Keep fighting get back up.. Someone asked me with all that you have been through how do you still manage not to give up on God.. With a smile on my face he is all I have.. I love that man so much.. He knows the ending to my story, He has shown me what he has for me and I want it hold heartily .. He has never left me, he don't judge me, he is my provider the list goes on and on.. If you have not tried him... I must say your missing out... Have a great day everyone... Thanks for all your support...Ms.K.Simpson love you all.. 

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

I Hear All The Time I'm Mean

A lot of people call me MEAN.....Hmmmm My thoughts on that.. This isn't my intent, I'm a potentially intimidating woman.... I am very conscious of this and generally actively try not to be but it's in my DNA... I'm very passionate. I am very confident, assertive, and can sometimes be aggressive. Combine that with a WOMAN that have been through somethings, seen something and don't have time for GAMES period. I say what I mean and mean what I say.. I can see how if you don't no me you would say that.. I don't let everyone in my circle. My circle right now is so small it don't make a dot to make a circle.. I've got a very large presence, which can be imposing. 

I'm not mean: I'm honest... their is a difference.. I just say whats on my mind even if most can't handle the truth.. I say what everybody else keeps in their head. I'm Not Mean... I'm Just Keeping It Real. I'm not a bakery so there is no sugar coding over here...I'm going to give it you you uncut and raw.. I'm brutally honest its not my fault that the truth hurts or you cant handle it.. So here is a band aid for you..

I can be the sweetest woman in the world. I am a genuinely good person. I'm silly like to have fun. If I can help you in any way I will.. I can be a great listener. I really do empathize, and I'm good at dealing with emotion (a lot better than most). I'm a genuine person...Yes I am a handful but mean well.. I'm incredibly affectionate, both emotionally and physically; and if I like you, there's no way you can miss it.

I give the world for my friends. When I call someone my friend I mean that I love them. That their happiness as a person is important to me. My friends love me too. And I don't keep score. There is no balance sheet. It's not a competition. I don't go along to get along, and I don't believe in politely accepting that which I strongly disagree with.

If it's a matter of subjective judgement or opinion, I'll strongly present my views, and listen to yours; and I'll defend and argue mine as long as you want. Maybe you'll change my mind, maybe I'll change yours, and maybe we'll both learn something along the way... And it's not a competition. Conversation is about ideas, and information, and argument, and personality. It's not about winning and losing.

When I'm wrong, I'm the first guy to admit it. I'm harder on myself than anyone else could be. I do everything I can to fix my mistakes, and to make sure they don't happen again. I REALLY hate being wrong, but I'm glad when someone points out I am, because I have to opportunity to fix it.

Thing is though, not everything is a matter of opinion. You can't always "agree to disagree". Truth is truth, facts are facts, and the real world doesn't give a damn if you don't like something, or something makes you feel bad. Reality is what it is. You can have your own opinion, but not your own facts; and if I know for a fact I'm right, I'm not going to back down just to make you feel better.

That is, unless I don't give a damn about you whatsoever, in which case I won't even bother. If I'm actually arguing with you, it's because I respect or value you enough to think you're worth the time and effort... Well... unless you've really pissed me off, or unless I'm just doing it to amuse myself.

The other thing is... I don't play games; because frankly, unless I really like you personally and value your opinion... I don't give a damn what you think or feel about me. I don't try to earn peoples good opinions; except in trying to make my actions the right ones as much as I can. I say what I want, when I want, and do what I want when I want; based on my own rules, and my own code.

I don't do or say things to impress people, or make them like me; nor do I refrain from doing something or saying something to gain or preserve someones good opinion of me. I do them because it's who I am, or what I want or feel I need to do. I'm secure in myself, and in general I don't desire or require validation or approval from others. Faced with all this, some people are intimidated, or even feel assaulted. They feel I'm arrogant, or conceited.

And yeah, I can see why some people feel that way. Intent or not, actions or not, tone or not... yeah I can see it. Yet you would have to know me and if you feel that way its clear you don't. I have a very few, very close friends who I would kill or die for; and who put up with me and my was (and I with theirs). I have a very select group of people who I really care about, and who I think care about me, and who I would do almost anything for within my power. I'm very lucky in this. Frankly I count myself among the luckiest woman alive because of it. Some of you think I'm mean I'm really not. You just don't know me and I'm very careful who I allow in my personal space. With that been said..... Don't judge me until you know me. Don't underestimate me until you challenge me. And don't talk about me until you talk to me. If you really knew me you wouldn't call me mean. You would call me real, grown, mature, blunt, upfront, plays no games, set in my ways and the list goes on and and on but not MEAN 

Dear Future Husband & My Happy Ever After

 Future Husband, My Happy Ever After: Sometimes when I say I'm okay, I need you to look me in the eyes , hug me tight, and say, I know you're not. I'll be a fireball you can barely handle sometimes. I want to be the woman who makes your bad days better. The woman that makes you say, My life has changed since I met her. I cannot imagine my life without you, I know this was nothing but God who sent you to me. Everyday I thank God for giving me you. You are the biggest blessing in my life

There may be a million things to smile about, but you're definitely my favorite one. I don't just want random texts saying, I miss you." I want that call saying, Come outside, I'm waiting for you. That moment when you look over at me, and I'm already staring at you.You have my whole heart for my whole life. I have been in love twice you make three. I'm just as Happy as I can be... I want to wake up to your smile everyday. I will answer to many names: angel, sweetheart, babe. But I think my favorite will be when you call me your wife.

You're the keeper of my secrets, the hand I'm holding, and the reason I smile. Someone who really loves you sees how moody you can get and how hard you are to handle sometimes, but still wants you in their life. You do know I have my moments....

My first name and your last name sound great together. Our wedding day will be the day I marry my best friend, the one I laugh with, live for, dream with, & love forever. I will do everything in my power to make sure you are happy.

Little things that mean a lot: forehead kisses, long hugs, sweet texts, holding hands, and gifts for no reason. All it took was simply meeting you to prove to myself that not all guys are the same. I've never been happier to be wrong. I'll never look at you and think this is as good as it gets. I'll always look at you and think it gets better all the time. I am insanely and madly in love with you.

No matter what we run into and no matter how hard things get, I want us to stick together. I remember praying these words..Dear Lord, make me the woman my future husband needs me to be & the woman of God your turning me into. I didn't want a perfect man. I just want someone to act silly with, someone who treats me well & loves being with me more than anything...

You see, I love you and I don't want to lose you because my life has been better since the day you found me. I fall asleep in your arms, not because I'm bored, but its because I feel safe. I will be yours, and you will be mine. Together we will grow old like fine wine. I will be a wife who will love you, cherish you, and always make you feel special. We are going to drive each other crazy sometimes, but there is no one else I'd rather spend my life with.He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less. John 3:30

Only God can love you more than I do. I loved you since the first time I saw you, never knew a friendship would turn out into a love like ours. I will love you unconditionally and always stand by your side.

We fight, we cry, we laugh, and we know each other like the back of our hands. Not only are you my best friend, but the love of my life.

I need someone who is prepared for random texts, my imagination, pointless arguments, sad/happy tears, and the acceptance of the real me. I want that late night movie, long walks in the park, cuddle up on the couch, kind of relationship.

Your dreams and wishes for life become my dreams and wishes, I'll support and believe in them just as if they are mine. When God made you, He must have been thinking about me. I take you to be my best friend, my faithful partner and my only love. I promise to love you through all the good times and bad. I thank my God in all my remembrance of you. Philippians 1:3

Your Future Wife & My Happy Ever After

Monday, March 18, 2013

My Happy Ever After

I'm delighted you gave me the ring
You are my soul mate not to mention my King
Your my fairy tale my dream come true
It's me and you against the world you got me I got you too
You showed me what real love feels like
Right now I'm on cloud 9 higher then a Kite
My life will never be the same
You're a God fearing grown man great provider that's not playing any games
With a smile on my face yes I will be honor to take your last name
I like how you finish my sentence and know my thoughts
This is some real love right here baby it cant be store bought
I'm glad God saved you just for me
I know it was God because it wasn't forced it flowed so naturally
I admire how you took it slow
Everything about me good bad indifferent you wanted to know
You knew I was your future Wife
You didn't hesitate blink or even think twice
You Words and Actions always Align
I got on my knees said thank you Jesus It's finally my Time
Time for me to love again
Thank you lord for sending me my Best friend
You are my Happy ever after
I'm over Joyed with this New Chapter
You put in the work  you earned my trust and honesty
Yes I will be your bride to be
Copyright © 2013 Kayundra Simpson

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Everything happens for a reason.....


Me: God, can I ask You a question?
God: Sure
Me: Promise You won't get mad
 God: I promise
Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?
God: What do u mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late
God: Yes
Me: My car took forever to start
God: Okay
Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait
God: Huummm
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call
God: All right
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?
God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that
Me (humbled): OH
GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.
Me: (ashamed)
God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work.
Me (embarrassed):Okay
God: Your phone went dead because the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered.
Me (softly): I see God
God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to put out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I'm Sorry God
God: Don't be sorry, just learn to Trust Me.... in All things, the Good & the Bad.
Me: I will TRUST You.
God: And don't doubt that My plan for your day is Always Better than your plan.
Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, Thank You for Everything today.
God: You're welcome child. 

Friday, March 8, 2013

I need Help

I'm not AFRAID to say it. "Lord I need HELP!" The things I'm trying to do are MUCH BIGGER than me. I am pushing as much as I can but FATHER I need you. I'm calling on you because I've "seen" evidence. I know what you can do. I'm grateful for where you have me right now but next year I want to be a best selling Author, I want to be in a position to do your will lord. I want to be able to help Women & Children that are less fortunate. Not even that but assist them in making their goals and dreams come true...I want to be able to show case my gift and talents all over the world..I want to be a blessing to someone that needs one. Whether it's a listening ear, a ride some where, food to eat.. At this very moment lord I surrender all to you. Use me as you want...Place the right people in my path to help me accomplish what I'm trying to do.. When people say it can't be done because of my assets, I want you to show yourself because if I was depending on my assets NOTHING would ever get done. You've SHOWED UP for me time and time again. #HELP!

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Remain Encourage

Remain encourage... Remember God hears us even in our silence. You have been seeking God for the solution and it is coming! The enemy did not expect you to get back up after the attack. God is your coach..The day you think you are not under construction is the day Satan will demolish you. Work In Progress, don't stop letting God work on you. God told you wait, but you decided to move forward without him...and now you are suffering for it. Patience is a process many abandon. Victory come in our patience not our anxiousness. God's word is like a G.P.S system. If you don't open your bible don't expect any guidance.

They should have known better, but your awareness kept you from being deceived. They thought you would have sink but your faith kept you anchored. The condition didn't change you but you change you mind about the condition. It's in God's hand now! They didn't know about your prayer life. No weapon can't come against prayer and prosper. The process help you to see the promise. While they laughed at your process God endorsed your progress.

You can't overcome if you don't go through it. Don't deny your process go through it. Peoples Rejection only gave you a better direction. Let God be your direction.

Don't just say you believe, get up and walk in what you believe. Don't just read the word of God apply it to your situation to get you through it. Don't just talk about your faith also put it into practice. I don't know everything, but I strive to know God. Jesus spoke to the storm and brought peace. Jesus will bring peace to your life when your focus go to him instead of the storm in your life. You can't spend what you don't have just like you can't talk about what you don't know.

Stop complaining about the car you are driving because some people have to walk because they can't afford one. While you complain about the food you eat at a restaurant just remember someone is starting to death. Be sensitive about God's favor.While you complain about the things you don't have go into a shelter and you will change your mind. If God gave us what we deserve none of us would be alive. Best you have an attitude of gratitude. When all is well that is when most of us forget about God.

It happened for your good. They didn't expect you to get through it. God lifted you up when your enemies kept you down. The enemy thought you would have gave up because of all you continue to go through. The storm didn't kill you it just made you more prepared for the next one. Your struggles only made you more determined...God has a Way of Changing a Fiery Furnace into a Showcase". Philippians 4:4-8

They tried their best to hurt you. But, they really ended up helping you. Forgive them! What they did not give to you kept you from being tied to them. Somewhere somebody would be GLAD to have your problems. Your problems would be a BLESSING considering what they're going through...Know This Whatever you are upset about is probably a distraction. Your time and energy would be better spent helping someone TRULY in need.

Some of us are depressed we don't have STUFF when there are some people who don't have their NEEDS. Blessings do not equal stuff. Blessings equal peace. You've tried it all. Bitterness hasn't healed U, being vengeful hasn't healed U, having a nasty attitude hasn't healed U. Now, try Jesus.....The Word of God can penetrate areas of your life sex, drugs, partying, multiple relationships etc. never can.

Don't put price tags on priceless possessions. Your body shouldn't be up for negotiations.Just because you're not cheap when it comes to what you buy, doesn't mean you're not cheap when it comes to being bought. Stop relying on others to cosign your choices. If you want to soar like an eagle, you'd better get used to flying solo...get your mind right. ~Ms.K.Simpson~

Your not ready for a Mate

You're not ready for a mate if you're not ready for the WORK. The WORK is in giving yourself to the cause of bettering someone else. It's not always gonna be easy. The WORK is in humbling yourself to the bigger picture, not allowing yourself to ignite the smaller battles. Defuse them with charity. The WORK is in learning how to see beyond other's faults to tend to their needs. We're so quick to run away from what we don't like, that we don't give ourselves time to learn how to love. The WORK is what a lot folks aren't prepared for in relationships. The pleasures are what they seek. God will never give you a finished product. He gives you someone you'll have to work with. Love her BEFORE she does anything to or for you.. Love her because God placed her in your life.

Season Reason Life Time

Sometimes, you just have to step back and observe. Every three months (once a quarter), I delete people from my life who no longer serve me. I believe that reasons and seasons are so much more important than lifetimes, because reasons and seasons give us so many lessons that we wouldn't have otherwise been taught.

But, what happens after the lesson is learned? How many people are in your circle who don't support or lift you up that should have been gone long ago? How many people are in your circle not holding you accountable for your bullshit? I am the average of the five people I'm around the most. This is why I don't allow people to just text me unless it's an emergency. I am not on my time; I'm on God's time. I have to be accountable for each moment that I'm allowed to use.

I've always been a protector of my space, but now that I have kids AND I'm running a business, I have to be ULTRA protective for their sake as well.

That friend always calling with drama,
that friend you can only have a good time with when they're drunk,
That friend who continues to blame everyone but themselves for their circumstances,
That friend who calls for advice they won't ever take,
That friend who is addicted to talking about your other "friends" behind their back...
Girl, you are wasting time that's NOT yours. There are consequences to that compromise.

Sometimes, you just need to say goodbye. All those distractions are simply ways the enemy has you procrastinating from fulfilling your purpose.

Stay on task. You are here for a reason

Thanks Dawn...