I PRETEND I don't see...A Collaboration between Terrance Lamar & Kayundra Simpson

Terrance: I PRETEND I don't see, your lust for what's in these streets, but you say you LOVE ME...I PRETEND I don't hear, when you think your being discrete, the conversations you hold SECRETLY!I pretend I'm sleep, so YOU THINK it's OK to text, and TWEET..(wrong)So I Put on a smile, and act like everything is OK, until YOU come home ONE DAY...To that house, that used to be a HOME, and everything in it is GONE..and a DIVORCE DECREE is all you see. Then YOU'LL will KNOW, I was the ONE "PRETENDING" all ALONE!!!!!

Kayundra: Don't pretend we both know something is wrong Lets address it try and fix it or we move on Its been a minute since our house has been a home Maybe I went about it the wrong way to get your attention-now that I have it are you ready to listen I have lust for the streets naw just creating other ways for our family to eat I love you and that's something I can't deny I'm with you to the end I'm your ride or die 

Terrance: OK I'm listening..talk to me, but not AT ME, or treat me like I'm SLOW, cause that by now you should ALREADY KNOW(I'm not!!!). I don't really talk much, but when I do, I need you to LISTEN..I'm sorry it had to come to this, just to get YOUR ATTENTION!! ADMITTEDLY I can say, I hadn't communicated I'm the best way..but I've loved you so much, for SO LONG, I forced myself to looked the other way! I tried telling myself that what we share is BIGGER than the secret phone calls, you staying gone from home, and those streets corners you be bumping..but the LONGER I kept quiet about it, the MORE I felt US LACKING SOMETHING!!! And we both know where there's a lack, there's A NEED, and people will ALWAYS try to get their needs FULFILLED..so let's fix this NOW, cause if given the chance SOMEONE ELSE WILL!!!!!

Kayundra: I don't think your slow but lately your actions have me feeling you don't love me any more. See I need you to communicate with me, don't you know I love you immensely, Losing you is something I don't want to do so baby tell me what do we need to do. I hear you loud and clear tell me where we go from here. Patience is still something I'm trying to perfect, we have got to communicate more so that we don't become each others EX,  Sometime I need you to slow down pour me a glass of wine rub my feet, don't say a word just listen. Lately I have had so much built up  and its causing us a lot of tension. When I tell you I'm hurt and I give you details don't blow me off  like I'm some random female.  Pay attention to my wants as well  as my needs, mentally emotionally spiritually my mind I need you to feed. How we got here I don't know I love you with every breath I breathe, You touch me like no other can don't you know your my best friend, my lover and my man sweetheart don't you know I'm your cheerleader and your #1fan. I'm going to take the blame for my actions and you take the blame for yours.  I'm excited to see what our future has in store. There is know one on this earth I love more...

Terrance:There ONCE was a time when WE didn't have to say it..OUR thoughts, our feelings and actions CONVEYED IT...I knew when you were hurt, and your HAPPY, and you knew MINE..I'd rub your feet, you'd wash my back, those were the GOOD TIMES!!! Those are the TIMES I MISS, and I know we have in us still..if we can put the BS to the side, and get back to what's REAL!!! Now we can talk about til our face turns blue, but let's be about it..Cause you love me, and I LOVE YOU...and though it's good being told, it's BETTER being SHOWED, then there's no doubt that IT'S TRUE!!!!!(soletsmakeitWORK)

2014© Kayundra Simpson And Terrance Lamar, All Rights Reserved

Its up to you

Where we go from here its up to you and how you pursue

Its not what you say but what you do

When you words and actions don't align

I get on down I dont waste my time

I give whats giving

Time shouldn't be forced but willing

I hear all the things you say

But its 24hrs in a day

A quick call or text just to say hey

That shouldn't be to much to ask

But if you have a problem fulfilling that task

I assure you... you will not last

Friend zone is where you will stay 

I'm at a place I know what I want and games I do not play

If your not ready to establish a friendship to lead to more

I'm sorry this is where it ends we have nothing to explore

If your seeking a quick fix or some nunu 

I'm sorry but pursing me is not what you need to do

I played games while I was in school 

You cant run that on me I'm know ones fool

Everything is a give and take

You have to be persistence and consistence to make me your mate

I don't do multiple people just that one I can build with and establish a permanent date

So until then I will patiently wait

2014© Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved

www.kayundrasimpson.com

2014© Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved

www.kayundrasimpson.com

15 Ways To Wake Up With Motivation

15 Ways To Wake Up With Motivation


Through all of the stories of great successes, it’s the men and women who found their motivation and consistently used it as their main drive to reach success.


Motivation and excitement about your vision, your ambition, your goal, give you energy and an ability to do what others can, but won’t do. If you’re motivated, you work longer hours, but are also more productive and focused in those hours you work. But what if you’re not internally motivated day after day to hustle, work, and trudge through the daily tasks that make-up the path to your end goal?


Are you relegated to a life of mediocrity, or is motivation something that can be coached, practiced, and created?
1. Have your biggest dreams written on a massive white board


Your dreams and audacious goals should be written where you can consistently see them. I use a big white board next to my desk. On the white board are my big goals, my weekly goals, and motivational quotes. This helps me keep the eye on the prize, maintain focus, and ward of the distractions that make their way into my day.




2. Focus only on TODAY


We can get lost in thinking about the future or regretting the past. What’s terrible about this is that while you’re worrying and wishing you were in a different position in life, someone else is working.


Worry does no good. If you truly want to succeed you need to learn how to focus your mind only on the present. Do what you can do in the moment, work on the project at hand, accomplish your daily goals and tasks, and you’ll do the same with your bigger, lifelong goals and dreams.




3. Have only 3 things on your to do list that MUST BE accomplished


Don’t try and fill your day with too much. Sure, you’d like to get a lot accomplished, but there should be 3 (only 3) important tasks that NEED to be accomplished. Focus on these first. When they’re completed, and only when they’re completed, are you allowed to move on to other things.


Too many people spread themselves thin. What ends up happening is they get overwhelmed, which crushes their motivation, and nothing gets done.


If you’re focused, you’ll stay motivated, you’ll get more done, and you’ll be where you want to be a lot faster.




4. Practice discipline


Discipline isn’t sexy, but it’s necessary. It’s in discipline that we gain freedom. We gain freedom to get more done, to improve, and to remove regret from our lives.


When you’re focused only on today, doing only what needs to be done in the now, nothing else matters. But discipline needs to be practiced everyday.


When a reporter asked two-time MVP point guard Steve Nash, how often he trained growing up, he said (and I paraphrase) Everyday. I never missed a workout, because I knew that if I missed one, I’d give myself a reason to miss another.


If you practice laziness and distraction, that is what you’ll be, and you’ll be left with nothing but regret and failure. Practice being successful by doing what successful people do everyday: they remain disciplined.


Remember, take it one day at a time. Don’t get overwhelmed with eternity when the present should be your only concern.




5. Create an inspiring environment


Your environment HAS TO inspire you. Surround yourself with images that motivate you, but also in a clean, clear space. Clutter truly does clutter the mind, but it can also be depressing to be in a messy area.


Pattern your work environment as you’d love it to be. Spend a little money on a nice desk if that’s your thing, but make sure your work space inspires you and motivates you. This is where the magic happens. This is where you should be spending most of your time. So make sure it affects you positively.




6. Have a quotes list near your desk, and your bed


It’s not the critic who counts… The famous quote by Theodore Roosevelt is always close. Be it in my notebook (one of the two), or handing from my bathroom mirror, or next to my bed, I always have inspirational quotes that keep me focused, upbeat, and aware that success isn’t immediate. That success takes hard work, dedication and much sacrifice.


If “making it” was easy, everyone would have made it. That’s why I respect all entrepreneurs, it takes guts to be in the arena.




7. Workout everyday


Part of staying motivated is warding off depressive thoughts. Being physically fit helps with that not only from an image and an energy aspect, but hormonally as well.


For men, being physically fit will help raise your natural levels of testosterone, which leads to diminished likelihood of depression. So get in the gym at least 4 times a week, and get outside and get active.




8. Set mini, measurable goals


You’ll have your big goals – and make sure they’re as clear as possible – but they need to be broken into smaller goals as well. Make these goals measurable and attainable in the near future (like “to-do’s”).


Everything should be measurable so you know where you are in relation to where you want to be (EVERYTHING).




9. Work in 90-120 minute intervals, interspersed with active breaks


Your work should be intense, purposeful, and focused. Studies have shown that we can do so for a 90-minute period, but tend to lose focus once that 90-minute period is finished.


One of the best ways to regain focus is to do something active. The endorphins release by a quick jog or set of sprints will help you not only gain energy, but regain focus.




10. Don’t work on small projects


That is, don’t set small goals that don’t excite you. You NEED TO BE excited about what you’re trying to accomplish. If it doesn’t excite you, how are you going to be motivated?




11. Clean once a week


Clean your house and work space once a week. Keep clutter and mess out of your life if you want to keep consistently motivated.




12. Take mini-vacations monthly


While the hustle and grind of creating something – i.e. the life of an entrepreneur – can be arduous and necessary, it needs “mini jolts”. Nature, for myself, is the best way to give me the jolts I need to stay focused, hustle daily, and accomplish big things.


You don’t have to spend a lot of money, but you should unplug once a month. Go local, but do what you gotta do to get out of your routine. You’ll not only be re-energized, but you’ll find that nature can enhance your creativity.


Bring a notebook and a book to accompany you on your adventure.




13. Read voraciously


Great people read. Books are their companions. Check out The Gates Notes - it’s Bill Gates personal website, filled with his personal notes on whatever he’s reading.


In all of my study of great people, be they politicians, entrepreneurs, or conquerors, knowledge was something they all craved. If you want greatness in your future, read in your present.




14. Journal daily


Spend one week making notes about when your energy levels – and motivation levels – are at their highest. There should be patterns. Use these patterns to your advantage.


Put your most important tasks in the times when your energy levels are at their height (I do all of my writing in the wee hours of the morning, or late at night, when no one is awake to bother me, and I can focus on one thing).


A journal will also help with clarity. It’s far easier to be motivated when your mind is clear, and the road to your goal is as well.




15. Win your mental battles


In his book, Think and Grow Rich, Napoleon Hill consistently refers to the battles we have in our minds. The rich think a certain way, and it isn’t necessarily a greedy way, but a positive one.


The thoughts that fill your mind should only aid you in your journey, they should detract from it. Now, you may think, How can I control all of the thoughts that come in to my head. You may not be able to control whatcomes in, but you do have the power to control which ones you pay attention to.


Fill your mind with creative, positive, and ambitious thoughts. Don’t give energy to your fears and worries. They do nothing but move you further away from your goals.




Bonus: Eliminate ALL distractions


I have an app on my computer called “freedom”. It shuts down the internet and all social media for a time determined by me. I start this timer every time I sit down to write to ensure that I’m not distracted.


If social media distracts you, set up your tweets, posts, or shares with an app like Hootsuite, so your curiosity isn’t constantly getting the better of you.

If you have nothing to distract you, you have no choice but to work.

You make me feel safe

You make me feel safe 

You’re like the calm to my storm 

I feel safe in your arms 

Your spirit I feel in my soul 

I hope you don’t mind me being a little bold 

I want to cater to you and please you in every way 

That is my main objective each and every day 

They say it take 21days to form a habit 

In one I knew I was going to need a straight jacket 

Because I knew you were going to have me crazy in love 

I also knew a challenge this was 

You’re different but also unique 

You’re everything I seek 

Don’t take this as me being weak 

I’m just telling you how I feel 

With you a friendship and more I would like to build 

I’m not in a rush but yes I know what I want 

It’s you I’m not going to front 

I pray for you each and every night

If you hadn't noticed your someone I really like 

I think about you and a smile comes across my face 

With you I always feel safe

2014© Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved

www.kayundrasimpson.com

I'm Uniquely created by the Master of Creativity

I'm Uniquely created by the Master of Creativity

I'm Uniquely created by the Master of Creativity

I'm Uniquely created by the Master of Creativity

I'm Uniquely created for a God given Purpose I'm Uniquely created with Motivations to succeed

My success may not be your success but remember

Each of us are Uniquely Created so what may tickle me fancy just may not be for you

Alone time does me all the good in the world, sometimes I can hear him speak with just a small whisper

I'm his Uniquely created girl

You may see my pics and many love all the smiles

But you can't imagine how many tap dances have been done on my heart

I can't even remember but it's thousands of miles

Because I'm Uniquely created many will never/don't understand who I am

I've done all the Glitz and Glam at this point I know who I am

I cherish the air I breath the earth that I walk on the people that I walk among

The life that I have lived and the life I continue to pray for

Soon very soon God will send me that Man/Partner/My Boaz

Because I know he created me

Unique and for me he has created Him the one who will see me as his moon, his sun, and his stars.

Because I was created by my Master of Creativity who Uniquely created Me

I have Epilepsy but it won’t have me

I smile because I have no more tears to cry

I stopped complain and asking GOD why

I got over the bruises and my hair falling out

Weight lost & all the things I can no longer do Jesus take the wheel I started to shout

I didn't feel pretty for a while

Attitude was really fowl

Had a hard time accepting I lost my Independence

I felt like I was serving a life sentence
So many said they would be there and had my back
I look around and wonder where their at
Asking others to do for me I don't no how to do
This is when I came to my source and said lord I trust you
I don't no what your doing but you in control
Lord take my hand because without you I can't make it down this road

It seems I had no support system and that was really weighing me down

I know God is there so no longer do I frown

My body ace and I never know when I’m going to hit the floor

I have Epilepsy an invisible illness educate yourself please don't ignore

No it’s not contagious and being around me want make you sick

So when your calls and text are ignore I may have seized I'm not acting funny that’s not it

I have memory lost a lot of things I forget

I don’t entertain extra, stress or too much these days because in a hospital bed is where I will lay

Being in a cold hospital room by your self is no fun on any day

All this is doing is strengthen me now I see

If you no someone that has an illness support is one the biggest things you can do

That will brighten up their day and help them get through

Just remember one day it could be you

2014© Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved
www.kayundrasimpson.com

www.kayundrasimpson.com

I'm A Person To

I’m A Person To

You couldn't imagine what I deal with or face

Yeah I had to slow all the way down and come at this at a different pace

I'm a messenger so I have to finish this race

Don't look at me in disguise or disgrace

You see this is not some kind of game

They said never again will my life be the same

The GOD I serve that is just something I will not and cannot calm

Nor will I hold my head down in shame

When I have a seizure please don't freak

Don't get upset if I don't take your calls, text, emails or even speak

Educate yourself a little more because after a seizure for days I'm weak.

And all I want to do is sleep

Please do you best to be my friend

A helping hand is what I'm asking for you to lend

In the case you’re with me and I start to seize

Make sure you time it and place me on my side please

Don't leave me alone stay with me until the event subsides

Under 5 minutes should be no trouble

If in doubt call 911 on the double

Yes I have Epilepsy this is true

I'm still a person just like you

The only difference I'm over coming and going through

It would be best to educate yourself on my illness to

2014© Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved

www.kayundrasimpson.com