I want a man that will this is a good read Marcus Smith Joins me with his version to what I want.. Hope you like it

I want a man that will




I want a man that will remover the hair from my eyes

I want a man that will want more the just to rub my thighs

I want a man that will find my inner beauty

I want a man that will take the time to pursue me

I want a man that will open doors and send me flower

I want a man that will stimulate my mind for hoursI want a man that will no what I need before I have to askI want a man that will make love to my mind

I want a man that will give me quality time

I want a man that will not make me cry

I want a man that will not lie

I want a man that I will not have to ask why

I want a man that will have my back

I want a man that knows how to be a man

I want a that's ready to sit down and make wedding plans

I want a man that's ready to make me is wife

I want a man that knows this is what he wants and don't have to think twice

I want a man to do many things

Now tell me what you can bring

Copyrights©2009 KayundraSimpson


This is what Mr. Marcus Smith had to say to what I want...

Some want a man she loves

some want a mn that loves her

A content woman is expecting both

A few want it all

But most want it small

Simple... somewhat discrete

Exclusive.. but forever concrete

Yea, I'm pretty sure

She wants her love to be pure

After purity comes security

And Stability

Room to expand her ability

Hmmm what she requests

And without a bullet proof vest

Around her heart

Where she's seen as a Work of Art

Connected, yet apart

From the chaos and the work place

Where her soul first place

Instead of living the worst case scenario

Like a play toy

A baby mother

Victim of a lady lover

Is what she wants not...

By a thread holding on

Trampled by a rolling stone

She would rather be alone

She wants to heal and be healed

She wants to love and be loved

She wants good conversation

That gives confirmation

Of her desire to go higher

and her to exceed..

Copyrights©2009MarcusSmith


Back at you Marcus

I know my worth others dont

Settling is something I can't do I just want

It took me a while to realize who I am

Before God came in my life I just don't give a damn

About anything or anyone

That was before I got the Holy Spirit The Father and The Son...


What God has for me is for me

So I learned how to sit down and wait patiently

For him to send me my king

Im not in a hurry do you know what I mean

I"m just expressing some of the things I want My Future Husband to bring

You suppose to speak it into existence and tell God what you want


I want a man to finish my sentence know all my thoughts

One that will accept me as well as all my faults

I'm a virtual woman waiting on a God fearing man

Not just any man just the one God has in is plan

So you see settling I just want do I want let the devil get the upper hand

On God's word is where I stand


So I sit and wait

God's an on time God he's never late

I don't walk by sight I walk by faith

Copyrights©2009 KayundraSimpson

Giving up.. Yes that's something I tried to do

Giving up yes is a coward thing to do

Who are you to judge me when your don't no what I'm going through

I give so much of myself

To the point I just don't have anything left

I uplift so many of you

Sharing parts of my story of what I've been or going through

To let you know to just hold on God's Got you

Some of you are saying how are you saying that when you tried to take your life

Yes I did that and didn't even think twice

I hadn't slept in 4 days hadn't ate in 3

The enemy caught me off guard and came after me

That's still no excuse for what I did 25 Valiums 2 bottles of wine

Guess what the EMT got to me so that means its just not my time

Everything you go through is a lesson learn

I had just reach my limit and was tired of getting burned

I only tell someone what I may want them to know which want be a lot just to see

Who's really there for me

I'm laughing because so many of you have so much to say

Take care of you, your own life don't worry about Ms.Kaye

Stop sticking your nose in others people's business when you don't have the whole story at the end of the day...

I'm broken I really need time to heal

Don't take it personal I don't want all those question or any of that negativity and that's real

I"m human I have feelings too 

Don't let this hard exterior fool you 

So don't get mad when I don't take your calls

I'm doing whats best for me at this time that's all

Your concerns I really appreciate

I'm paying real close attention to the ones that's real and fake

This is my life at stake I can't afford to make any more mistakes™

2012©Kayundra Simpson, All Rights Reserved

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I'm not sharing this with you to get a whole lot of likes or comments I'm sharing because it's someone out there about to explode. Its someone that feels the same way I did.. I'm sharing it to tell them stop running to people man will fail you every time... Run to God he's never late always on time..

I really don't care what anyone has to say about me at this point.. I have taking on everyone else problems been everything everyone else wanted me to be or do.. I have wore the Wonder Woman cape long enough.. Don't tell me I'm this and that... when half of you can't pick up the phone just to ask me how are you doing or do I need anything? Yet when you hear something bad or something went wrong with me you break your necks to call text ect.. Checking on me that goes a long way with me. I don't require a lot... I'm not trying to be someone I'm not, At this point in my life I just want to do what God has for me to do. My passion is writing uplifting others and giving back.. I look back over my life to how far God's has brought me. I love me I realize that wasn't a good move at all. Yet the experience it gave me I will be able to help someone else. Its a reason God spared my life.. All I can come up with is he has a lot more work for me to do. Now don't get me wrong I'm not sharing this with you because I want or need your pity. I'm doing it because God put it on my heart to share.. You never know what someone is going through.... 

I've totally surrender my all to God So come on devil I know you will be coming at me real hard.. Fake friends get on down..I don't have a place for you so move around. God is my everything and he shall supply all my needs.. See when I finally decided I was out of the streets completely and wanted to totally commit and do what God wanted me to do.. All hell broke loose.. Whats funny is all these sideline people that swear they know whats going on with me or my life... I can count on one hand how many I talk to. Even those people, I don't let completely in..We all go through things at times and need someone we can talk to. This whole situation has taught me to stay true to myself. I can go and talk to God about any and everything.. With God for me who can be against me. I'm over fake friends, people just wanted to be around to see what I'm going to do..People calling like they are concern when really they are not at all. Its funny but some people love to see you down thy thrive off that so much...Who was there to be a listening ear for me? To just listen..... The funny thing is people say to me. I don't worry about you because your Kaye, and you will make it do what it do.. Another one of my favorites is your so inspirational you have a lot of faith.. How are you going to give up now, when you write and inspires others all day everyday.. I'm not perfect, there is only one perfect man and that's Jesus.. So stop trying to judge me.. 

I let everything I had going on just build up to the point I just exploded.. Someone called me Fake lol...... now that was a first....Sometimes there are things you just don't need to speak on.. Take what others are saying about you and keep moving. Everyone is entitled to their opinion and its just that.. Take whats for you and keep moving.. I'm not put on this earth to please anyone but God as of now that's what I'm doing. 

Someone woke up this morning feeling low every day God wakes you up is a reason to keep going and not give up. You may not have what you want but you have what you need. Trust in God I promise you he can and will supply all your needs.. Whatever your going through please don't hold it all in.. Talk to someone, lets someone in.. Don't let the devil win. ~Ms.K.Simpson~

Are you really ready...

Sometimes it will take being in her presence to know that she’s the ONE. It’s cool to have preferences and expectations, but don’t miss out on a godsend focusing on her race, hair length, size, etc. Make sure that what you WANT is in alignment with what you NEED complementing your life of purpose. Pray, discern, and then choose.  It doesn't take a man MULTIPLE years to know if you’re the ONE. You deserve to be with someone who knows your WORTH, rather than someone who is either lost, not ready, or just has you in the mix with others in attempt to find the best fit for his life. You’re a jewel, rather than a competitor on Eliminate. Ladies, it really is okay to let a man lead you. It does not mean you are weak or unable to care for self it just means you are so comfortable in your own strength you can submit to a God fearing man and allow him to play his part in your life. So many times, we take on a superwoman mentality because of things that may have happened in the past (kids dads not being around, your own father not being there, just used to having to play both roles). If we submit to God, we will have no problem submitting to a God lead man because if he is following Him, we know we are going in the right direction. Don't be so "superwoman" and "I can do it by myself" you miss out on the man purposed for you.

Love complements you in the RIGHT season, with the RIGHT person, for the RIGHT reasons. Be prepared in advance. Are you really ready for love or just trying to fill a void? Be honest with yourself.God wants to turn your broken pieces into a restored masterpiece. Give him access to your "heart" on today.

Be vulnerable,open & completely honest w/ your mate. She's there To HELP, rather than HINDER. Pursue her RELENTLESSLY. Also remember, she's not "officially yours" until after I DO. Studying & learning your mate should be a lifetime class, rather than a 1 semester assignment. Communication is essential.. If you can't get along, it won't last long..If God ain't 1st in your life, NO other relationships outside of him will work. In order for love to survive & GROW, SELFISHNESS has to DIE..if he's into you, he will pursue you. Don't ASSUME anything! Quality time is a must. Anyone that u VALUE should be of PRIORITY in your life. A faithful man that leads & listens, will have a submissive wife that loves & honors. 

Insecurity issues are residue left from the people who've done you wrong or the one's that relationships didn't work out right. Forgiving them not only frees you from holding people in bondage, but it also allows God access to heal your heart to love & be loved again. Be able to UPGRADE your woman SPIRITUALLY ,rather than DEGRADE her EMOTIONALLY. Be the love in advance that u want rendered to you in the future.

When was the last time you spent time w/ the one you love WITHOUT interacting on your FB, twitter, instagram, etc while in their presence. Sometimes we just need to leave the laptops closed, tablets powered off, and phones on the charger while giving our ALL into quality time w/ another. Never attempt to FORCE a person to love you. Love is given FREELY from a persons heart w/ pure motives. Settling for less than you deserve is only saying that I'd "temporarily" rather have someone than no one.  IMPATIENCE & COMPROMISING will always give the WRONG people access.. Don't settle!

Lust

"LUST is a strong sexual attraction to another person which is mostly short-lived, whereas love inconveniences itself for the convenience of others. Love lasts longer than lust.

The man or woman in lust would do virtually anything to get
his or her need met. The unsuspecting partner who wrongly translated all those gestures as pure love gestures gets led astray and also develops strong love and affection for the lustful partner.

After satisfying his or her lust the lustful partner moves on to another person. The partner who fell in love with the lustful man or woman will then find it so difficult to forget about him or her. He or she may try so hard to keep him or her and end up getting hurt. The partner who was in love desired a lasting relationship, whereas the one in lust was just interested in satisfying his or her sexual desire."~Relationship Matters (18+)

Real Talk Moment 101....

If your only catching guys who want a One Night Stand not a Lifetime Commitment, take another look at how your baiting the hook! Single Men  If God is not the head of our lives, we shouldn't attempt to be the head of hers. Dysfunctional leadership causes dysfunctional marriages, families, etc. No man on earth is perfect, but in order to lead a GREAT FAMILY, our imperfections should be placed in the hand of our PERFECT Go. Some people will meet the RIGHT one and then run them away, due to UNREAL expectations & UNHEALED places in their heart. DON'T let that be you!!!! If it seemed like forever to FIND her or be FOUND by him, make sure that you spend the rest of your life proving that you were well worth it. Not everyone left you..some people were snatched away from you(they didn't even want to leave)...God is just that serious about his children and their destiny..

Being mean, standoffish, or having the need to control situations doesn't get the man you want, it makes him FLEE. EVERY person shouldn't have to pay for what someone else did to you. Don't let OLD hurt block your heart from NEW love. Your heart is SAFER in God's hand, rather than your own. Allow him to heal you which allows you to forgive, move past, and develop into a prize possession for whoever finds you. The best gift that you could possibly give her is that of a Godly man wrapped up as a husband w/ character, integrity, commitment, communication,understanding, and a sense of humor all in one.  If pursuing with a purpose is NOT your intention, DON'T waste her time!! A lot of people will miss out on the RIGHT one, ASSUMING that everyone is like their last one. Love REQUIRES a forgiving heart, rather than one that REFUSES to let things go. 

 (Proverbs 18:21)Words have POWER!! You can't confess in your heart that there are NO good men, and at the same time expect God to bless you with one. Rather it's through social networking or in person, men can sense NEGATIVE. Pray for God to renew your heart & thought process . With a POSITIVE attitude, in the RIGHT season, he will FIND you. SO many are CURRENTLY so abused & hurt from their PAST, that they've decided to SETTLE w/ being someone's sex partner, part time cuddler, open relationship boy/girlfriend,etc, WITHOUT sharing their ENTIRE HEART with another. Holding another hostage for what they've done to us in the PAST, will make us miss out on a potential PRESENT or FUTURE blessing. You're worthy of love and deserve to love & be loved again. Cast your heart to God so that he can renew it, then prepare it to place you in position to find or be found. EVERY friend shouldn't be in consideration to be your lover in covenant. You can easily find someone to be cool with, but finding someone to complement you, love you unconditional, and understand you is something that requires prayer, discernment, and confirmation in your spirit from God. Be patient!

 It doesn't take a rocket scientist to know if he's into you or not. For MOST situations, it doesn't take outside help to distinguish how YOU are being treated from how YOU should be treated. Sexing him will give the both of you soul ties & orgasms, but NOT a ring & his heart. Knowing that he's interested in or with somebody else, takes you from being in position to be found to in position to be used, abused, or just his fling on the side. YOU can't continue to blame men for what YOU allow. When YOU respect & honor your heart & body, men will do the same. Staying with the WRONG person until someone better comes along, shows that you can't be content in your season(s) of singleness. The day that YOU realize that YOU deserve better, is the day that you'll STOP trying to make the WRONG one's be the RIGHT ONE. If you truly know that God is NOT a God of confusion, stay out of situations that you don't have a CLEAR understanding about. If he really wants you, he will let NOTHING stop him from marrying you!! You're made in the image of Christ and should be pursued wholeheartedly or you should just remain SINGLE until the RIGHT one comes along.
Marry her because you love her & she complements you, rather than just because of her physical presentation. Models that ONLY have beautiful exteriors look good if you're trying to impress the world, but have a short shelf life when it comes to love & marriage. Connect with someone that honors & respects God and she will do the same for you. If she's fully submitted to God, she'll submit to you as you do the same for her. A woman that guards her tongue from gossip & foolishness, will speak life into you rather than belittling you. A wife will either complement your purpose or hinder it. Pray, discern, and pay attention before saying I DO. PRIDE will have you blaming EVERYBODY for EVERY failed relationship in your past. It’s easy to blame another, but you will keep repeating the same cycles until you either STOP compromising with the WRONG people or START being truthful about there being issues within you that you've chosen to hide behind your “take me as I am” mentality.

You're A Woman

Every now and then I need uplifting and encouraging.. Thanks Myra Surratt-Walters  Karonda Nottage and Rayna R Stephens.. We all go through something its a matter of how you deal with it. Your not weak because you cry and let it all out. Nor because your going through somethings. Don't be ashamed to open up, let someone in. you'll never know who can help you in your time of need. I know your saying well I don't want anyone in my business.  Yes you have to be careful who you let in your business because not everyone has your best interest at heart. Ask yourself why are you worried about what people say they talked about Jesus.. If your worried then Pray to God to open up your heart to receive the people that will keep what you say to them between you guys... Go to that person and tell them I want to remain anonymous. I'm telling you from experience drop that pride. You never know how your story can help someone else. God allowed you go go through it for a reason.. The only person you need to be worried about is God getting the Victory after your storm has passed... So what your about to get evicted, behind in your utility's lost your job if they get to talking asked them can they help you. or point you in the right direction.. See we tend to worry about the wrong things these days.. Well ask yourself this. How can someone help you if they don't know whats going on.. Just know your are not alone.. When your trying to do right that's when its seems like everything is all out of place and more problems as well as obstacles come up. I know it  makes you want to go back to the familiar. Don't do that God is just getting you ready for something Amazing just hold on a little while longer..

You're A Woman
You're a strong woman that can hold her own
You've been through a lot I see why your so strong
I don't know how you keep it all together
You seem to hide your feeling from others now that's kind of clever
You're a woman that won't give up without a fight
I must say that's one of the things I like
You're a woman that tries to keep it all together
You intimidate people therefor
They don't know how to get on your level
You're a woman that's God fearing and keeps God first
Yet people are always trying to bring out your worst
Your a woman that has changed her life around
Yet some people like to still through up your past
They won't let you live it down
You don't have to acknowledge them with words
Just be silent and not make a sound
You're a woman that was lost but now your found
God choose you and now you've turn your life around
You're a woman that don't care what people think or say
Because God keeps blessing you each and everyday
Don't give up your blessings are on the way
Copyrights©2012 KayundraSimpson Real Talk What Others Are Afraid To Say Volume 1

You never know who is going through it...

 I'm encouraging you to check on a friend or a love one.. They may be down on their luck, lights have been disconnected and their sleeping in the dark, don't have food to eat, about to lose their home right before the Holidays, sick, stuck in the house with no way to move around. You never know who is going through it.. Some people on the outside you see them and you think they have it all together.. Life has taught them to be strong and keep their heads up.. They hide their pain with a smile... Know one is perfect, you never really know who is going through what. I challenge each you all one to reach out and check on someone. Even if you can't help monetary help with just a simple hello, I miss you, I was just thinking about you.. You wouldn't believe how far that will go when your feeling mighty low..

For the ones that's going through this and reading this right now. I want to tell you God has not forgotten about you. I know it seems like all hope is gone but trust in God he will make away. I know your probably saying she is just talking. I will tell you this I don't speak on things I have not endured because I wouldn't no what to talk about. Half of the stuff I just named Me myself is going through.. Am I ashamed no because I have realize that God is truly using me. In order for me to go to the next level I have to past the test..  So Ashamed to let the world no I'm human I make mistakes I to fall short and yes my money get funny.. I just don't have that kind of time or energy to try to impress anyone anymore. I'm living for God and I want all that he has for me..

 EVERYONE has a past. That's why JESUS had to come to give us a future. Your past does not devalue you but educates you. If you keep running back to the familiar every time your in a bind I assure you will will continue to repeat that test... I'm talking from experience. If you will push through fatigue and pain to get to Jesus His presence will make you whole! This next door is about to open NEW doors. Move towards excellence even when times are hard. Fear nothing remember God is life and life is God. When it comes to LIFE, you add by subtracting. Subtract what's not working. There's NOTHING embarrassing about having a past. What's embarrassing is your past still being your present when you KNOW better. OK so your going through a rough time and your afraid what others are going to have to say about you.. I'm confused to why you care are you living for others to validate you or for God to uplift you and take you higher.

So what you don't have it like you use to have it but baby in my Kayundra voice when you completely submit to God the things you use to have will be nothing to what my father will do.. Trust God....Life comes to teach you how to SEE. You can do it! God has a STRATEGY for YOU!  For God to allow HIMSELF to be our inheritance is blessing enough forever...

So many of  you are afraid to tell you story and let other no your not perfect not knowing your story can help someone else.. I quit caring what people thought of me years ago. Not trying to keep up with the Jones.. What I'm trying to do is walk into my destiny.. See I know what its like to be Homeless, to turn a trick, have no food to eat, be in the dark because my lights have been disconnected, to go to jail, to get evicted and the list goes on and on. A lot of you have been there too.. They say as a mother you do what you have to to in order to take care of your kids.. Yeah that was my mind set at one point and time... Til I got tired of going through the same mess and not passing the test. So that I could go to the next level.. I'm not proud of the things I did. I just can't allow it to keep me in bondage anymore.. Looking back over my life and telling myself when my back is up against the wall..your a hustler Kaye you know how to get money but all money is not good money.. If it comes fast it don't last. I just can not sell myself short anymore for a dollar.. Because the God I serve said he will supply all my needs all I have to to is Ask Trust and Believe Then shall I Receive.. I have fault this for far to long.. Now its time for me to take back everything the Devil has stole.. I cant go through life fight what God has for me.. I'm ready for him to elevate me and take me higher... I don't want to got to the club lets talk about how we can start some business ventures and help other people.. I know I will lose some more friend and guess what that's OK with me. I'm no longer living for people but for my divined purpose.

I'm tired of putting on the pretend face and tired of repeating the same test over and over again.. Sometimes we get in the way of our blessings.. I have hit rock button and there is no where but up to go.. Someone inbox me and was like how do you just put what your going through out there like that. Well I don't put everything out there, but I do share what God tells me to share if it can help someone else to let them know they are not alone.. You cannot heal yourself, you can spend time with God and learn to speak over yourself. But God has to heal you first... you talking about someone broken into pieces...I think for the longest I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders...

Friends of mines that know me would say I'm bi polar lol but they know my heart is huge.. I have lost some of my closes and dearest friends to some of silliest things. I still pray for them. I pray that God will mend their heart as he did mines allow them to move past what ever disagreement we had.. I've had a friend that married my x boy friend a friend that when she is going through it she shuts down completely. I have friends that I might not like how they do stuff. Yet I have learn through it all all these people have play a roll in my life good bad and indifferent.  I know I have not been the easiest person to deal with, and at times yes I can be selfish....  To those of you that are still in my life I just want to take the time to say I love you and thank you so much for being apart of my life. To the ones that's not I'm sorry for everything I did or said to you and I pray that God bless you with all your heart desires...Now some friends we may never speak again and Im ok with that because God didn't intend for everybody to come with me on my journey. Let them go. Extra baggage will slow you down. .You cannot heal yourself, you can spend time with God and learn to speak over yourself. But God has to heal you first...

If you're not saying anything... You're not creating anything. Words have creative power! Speak life!! Where there is God's will, there will ALWAYS be a way. Where there is no way, there must be something better. Trust God!! You can't reach for anything new if your hands are still full of yesterday's junk.Worry and fear will keep you up tossing and turning all night. Try FAITH it makes a mighty fine pillow. One of the secrets of a long & peaceful life, is to forgive everybody & everything before you go to bed. Talk to God, He'll help you.No one makes a lock without a key. That's why God won't give you problems without solutions. Dear Past.. Thank you for your lessons. Dear Future.. I'm ready. Dear God.. Thank you for another chance. Nobody is Perfect.." But you can't keep using that as an excuse to do wrong.Own Everything That Has Happened To You. God Will Make Something Beautiful Of It.